Pray for me, people.
I have no idea what to do with myself these days. I feel absolutely and completely lost. Not having a job for so long does not do positive things for the self-esteem. I don't even know what I would enjoy, what would make me happy. And have no idea what I would actually be good at. I've been looking into Medical Assisting lately but I just don't feel comfortable with the idea of going to school and being jobless. And if I was going to school and working at the same time, I would feel Shaneless. I wouldn't see him very much and I don't want that.
Homer Hickam's idea of a Rocket Boy or a Rocket Girl is someone who knows what they want to do, they go after it, and they get it. When I met him a few years ago, he called me a Rocket Girl... now here I am wondering what the heck that crazy man was thinking? The only thing I really enjoy and already know I'm good at is video editing. But I have no idea where I would even start with that as far as schooling or careering (that's right, i made up a word) would go. I don't exactly see many postings for video editors or film editors on Craigslist these days. Other than that, I feel that I've got nothin.
Dental Assisting was fun while it lasted but some part of me is over it. I know I wouldn't be happy with that again though if that's the only job I can find right now, I will take it.
Journalism I was good at but that's a nearly impossible industry to succeed in... unless my dream is to write obituaries for a few decades.
And other than those things, I've never really been great at anything else.
I don't know what to do but to pray for some newfound skill or passion.
Untill then, I feel like a shivering scared little animal. Which way do I go? Which path do I take? I don't like this feeling of being all alone in a big scary place, especially since I can't find my way anywhere without a GPS and animals don't have thumbs...
It's all for the best
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSwWSpSESbg
I think these guys did this very well.
Fast forward to about 35 seconds in.
I think these guys did this very well.
Fast forward to about 35 seconds in.
Sunday Skoo
Monday, September 14, 2009
So I began my career as a Sunday School teacher at the church this past Sunday. It was fun though I was kind of weirded out to discover the boy from VBS who kept talking about blood and demons is in my class. Kindergarteners should not be that passionate about blood.
But it was good times, I get to be Sprout... which is a puppet some of the kids have come to know from previous years at Sunday School, so they were so excited to see him. I just wish I could do a better voice!
In other news, I'm in charge of the snack for bible study on thursday and am hoping it goes well. i will be making 30-something key lime bars. If they don't turn out right, i will be sad.
ooh and bowling season has started again, so i will be bowling with the league on wednesday! i've been missing it so much all summer. I've been missing winning money in the mystery pot too!
Also, i'm looking forward to going to the halfway to St. Patrick's Day White Sox game on Friday. Green everywhere!
... annnnnnd i'm done.
But it was good times, I get to be Sprout... which is a puppet some of the kids have come to know from previous years at Sunday School, so they were so excited to see him. I just wish I could do a better voice!
In other news, I'm in charge of the snack for bible study on thursday and am hoping it goes well. i will be making 30-something key lime bars. If they don't turn out right, i will be sad.
ooh and bowling season has started again, so i will be bowling with the league on wednesday! i've been missing it so much all summer. I've been missing winning money in the mystery pot too!
Also, i'm looking forward to going to the halfway to St. Patrick's Day White Sox game on Friday. Green everywhere!
... annnnnnd i'm done.
Old video
Friday, September 11, 2009
Since I've discovered I can upload videos to blogger, I'm going to throw one of my favorites up here. YouTube muted the sound on this about a year ago which really bummed me out cuz I'm quite happy with it.
Music is Dead Man by Jars of Clay with clips from 6 Feet Under. It's kind of dark but I dig dark so there you go...
Music is Dead Man by Jars of Clay with clips from 6 Feet Under. It's kind of dark but I dig dark so there you go...
New video
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
I worked very hard on this video and tried to put it on youtube but the record labels have this thing there now where anyone using their music... their videos get muted upon upload. Stupid youtube. Sooo I put it here instead. Quality isn't perfect but neither was my horrible software, I did the best I could with what I had and this is the result...
Video
Friday, August 21, 2009
my latest creation... it was a pain in the butt to make...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXXSTN10YkA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXXSTN10YkA
Knock knock
Friday, August 14, 2009
*opens crypt and crawls out*
It's true. I'm still alive! It's shocking that me of all people could neglect my blog for so long, but I have. I just haven't really felt like writing about anything lately and haven't had much to say.
I don't have anything interesting to say now either but I figured I should probably update.
Well.... I think a wisdom tooth is coming in. Which scares me! I'm a big baby and hear that wisdom tooth removal is not a stroll in the park. I'm also very picky and refuse to go to anyone but Dr. Wolff despite having lost my job there a year and a half ago. And though professionally, he's the best general dentist a person can get, he's not a specialist and can't always pull wisdom teeth. And with my uber tiny mouth, I have a feeling he'll send me to a specialist. Which is lametarded.
In other news, my xbox 360 is sick. Every now and then the ring goes like 75 percent red. So I take out the power cord for a second and then plug it back in and then all is well. I fear it will eventually just die soon though. I have a warranty and all but it's such a pain in the butt getting a replacement. I had to wait 6 months last time when my original 360 broke cuz they just didn't have anymore. Gah!
In more other news, I'm getting more involved in the church. Which is something that makes me happy. A few weeks ago, I noticed in the bulletin that they were looking for people to help run the St. Paul's booth at the Lake County Fair and I told Shane we should sign up for it. So we did. We didn't really do too much there because most people at a County Fair aren't interested in church booths, but it was still fun and we felt good about helping out.
And while we were there, Carol, this woman who usually leads the Sunday morning bible class that we go to, showed up to chat for a while. She told us about how her dog had cancer and she wanted a cheaper alternative than expensive surgeries to fix it so she started doing internet research. She ended up coming across this tea called Essiac that's supposed to make the immune system stronger and it also contains cancer killers. It was made for humans to use but she went ahead and got some for her dog and said it worked!
Sooooo after hearing this and knowing that my Granny now has lung cancer, I told my mom about it and asked her what she thought. She instantly ordered a bunch of it. Then when my mom and I took Granny to her first chemotherapy session, we asked her doctor if he heard of it and if it would be ok for her to take it. He looked down at the list of medications she was on and said "You know what, I want her to stop taking (some medicine that I can't remember the name of) and start drinking the tea instead. A lot of my patients have better results with the tea."
So yay! That was good to hear. She still hasn't been able to try it yet tho because she can't keep anything down. But when she gets stronger and isn't so sick, hopefully she can have some and it will help.
Anyhoo, as for getting involved in the church, last Sunday, Alice (who is the designated Sunday School organizer) told Shane she put something in our church mailbox about Sunday School. Then she turned to me and asked if I'd be interested in helping out at all. (she told me before she thought i was really great with the kids during VBS) I told her yes! And that if the position was available, I'd be interested in being Linda's helper. (I was her helper thru VBS and loooooved her) So now I'm waiting to hear if the position is open. I really hope it is.
Well that's it for now but I may edit later when i realize i forgot stuff i wanted to talk about...
It's true. I'm still alive! It's shocking that me of all people could neglect my blog for so long, but I have. I just haven't really felt like writing about anything lately and haven't had much to say.
I don't have anything interesting to say now either but I figured I should probably update.
Well.... I think a wisdom tooth is coming in. Which scares me! I'm a big baby and hear that wisdom tooth removal is not a stroll in the park. I'm also very picky and refuse to go to anyone but Dr. Wolff despite having lost my job there a year and a half ago. And though professionally, he's the best general dentist a person can get, he's not a specialist and can't always pull wisdom teeth. And with my uber tiny mouth, I have a feeling he'll send me to a specialist. Which is lametarded.
In other news, my xbox 360 is sick. Every now and then the ring goes like 75 percent red. So I take out the power cord for a second and then plug it back in and then all is well. I fear it will eventually just die soon though. I have a warranty and all but it's such a pain in the butt getting a replacement. I had to wait 6 months last time when my original 360 broke cuz they just didn't have anymore. Gah!
In more other news, I'm getting more involved in the church. Which is something that makes me happy. A few weeks ago, I noticed in the bulletin that they were looking for people to help run the St. Paul's booth at the Lake County Fair and I told Shane we should sign up for it. So we did. We didn't really do too much there because most people at a County Fair aren't interested in church booths, but it was still fun and we felt good about helping out.
And while we were there, Carol, this woman who usually leads the Sunday morning bible class that we go to, showed up to chat for a while. She told us about how her dog had cancer and she wanted a cheaper alternative than expensive surgeries to fix it so she started doing internet research. She ended up coming across this tea called Essiac that's supposed to make the immune system stronger and it also contains cancer killers. It was made for humans to use but she went ahead and got some for her dog and said it worked!
Sooooo after hearing this and knowing that my Granny now has lung cancer, I told my mom about it and asked her what she thought. She instantly ordered a bunch of it. Then when my mom and I took Granny to her first chemotherapy session, we asked her doctor if he heard of it and if it would be ok for her to take it. He looked down at the list of medications she was on and said "You know what, I want her to stop taking (some medicine that I can't remember the name of) and start drinking the tea instead. A lot of my patients have better results with the tea."
So yay! That was good to hear. She still hasn't been able to try it yet tho because she can't keep anything down. But when she gets stronger and isn't so sick, hopefully she can have some and it will help.
Anyhoo, as for getting involved in the church, last Sunday, Alice (who is the designated Sunday School organizer) told Shane she put something in our church mailbox about Sunday School. Then she turned to me and asked if I'd be interested in helping out at all. (she told me before she thought i was really great with the kids during VBS) I told her yes! And that if the position was available, I'd be interested in being Linda's helper. (I was her helper thru VBS and loooooved her) So now I'm waiting to hear if the position is open. I really hope it is.
Well that's it for now but I may edit later when i realize i forgot stuff i wanted to talk about...
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